Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Don't know what to do...

It's strange, I'm finally in a relationship, but it's not what I thought it was going to be. I guess because I expected my guy to....be more affectionate like I am, but he isn't and I don't know what to do. He's a good guy and all, but....I guess I had high expectations because this is my first "serious" one. He told me that in the stage that he is in his life, he wants to be serious, but I guess I had a different interpretation of it. Jason is a beautiful man and I'm lucky to have him, but it seems like I'm putting a whole lot more than he's putting into it. Maybe I need to stop spending more time with him. I've been over almost every day, but maybe some time apart would be healthy. It's all confusing because I do reflect a lot into this and different scenarios pops into my head. That's a thing that I sometimes don't like about myself, I'm a dreamer, I'm a reflector, I'm a thinker, and sometimes I think that may get me into trouble some day. It adds a lot of stress and unneeded drama within myself and with my friends. I tell my friends a lot of what's going on in my life, and I feel like they don't need MY drama affecting their lives.

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